Who? What? When? Where? Why? How?

This was found in the drafts section….
{There are like, 90 drafts. I may have to go back through all of those. Thanks to John for encouraging that.}
My current feedback about this post follows it.

08 October, 2009

John Roquemore,
My future husband (Only 85 days away).
I fall more in love with you every day.
My respect and admiration, love and adoration for who you are as a man as well as who you are as His child increases constantly.
I know that I am loved by you. I know that I am loved by Him who makes love possible.
I am so blessed that you love me – that I get to be with a man who I KNOW has a heart to lead me to Jesus and really be willing to be ‘those crazy people.’ Those crazy people who carry their babies in cloth wrapped around their bodies, who don’t use birth control or ‘plan’ their family. Those crazy people who just keep having babies; those crazy people who open their home to let all kinds of people in. Those crazy people who have 5 shades of children.
Those crazy people that talk about Jesus like he’s part of their family (because He is).
You, my love, are part of His complete work in my life, and I am completely reassured and at peace about that in this very moment more than I’ve ever been about anything.
Oh, Jesus; He’s so good, so loving, so perfect.
Oh, Jesus; that He gave me you.
Oh, Jesus; that I’d give you right back to Him everyday.

My husband.
You’re going to be my husband.
Maybe we’ll have a baby in a year and a half. Maybe five. (Years, not babies.)

No matter who: they are, boy or girl, birthed or adopted, we’ll trust Him, we’ll surrender to Him, we’ll celebrate.
No matter what: the circumstances are, we’ll know it’s part of His complete plan for our lives, we’ll know He’s especially fond of us and baby Roquemore and baby next and next and next.
No matter when: if we get pregnant on our honeymoon or 2 years later, or if we’re never able to have our own children – we’ll trust that He’ll give us the family He wants us to have in His perfect timing.
No matter where: we are in this world, we’ll know that we’re in His hands.
No matter why: anyone else disagrees, speaks harshly or sarcastically about this path we’ve chosen, we’ll be confident in our conviction.
No matter how: (well, we know how it’ll happen), no matter how long it takes, no matter how He brings it about, we’ll know, yet again, He’s got us right where He wants us to bless us, grow us, teach us, lead us, love us (and our babies).

Sweet man, I am honored to join you in this journey. I delight in your presence; I delight in pursuing Him with you.

With all the love he’s given me to give away,
Your future wife.


This post was incredible for me to read now, almost 18 months later.
Especially in the context of Amelie Rose Roquemore. Our little surprise baby.
Also interesting, because we did decide it would be wise for us to “plan” our family to some extent.
{Which, for us, looked like the use of condoms. Well, of course except for that one time… Enter: Amelie.}