Dear John. | { Marriage }

Dearest Husband,
There are moments when I’m reminded of the absolute gift I’ve been given in having you for a husband. And in those moments, it’s one of my life’s biggest regrets that I don’t spend pretty much every minute of every day telling you that I adore you. That I treasure you. That it’s my life’s greatest joy {after having been set free in Christ} to have you as a best friend.

I have a husband who’s truly a help mate, and who challenges me to be so. A man who strives to lead me to Yehovah daily. A man who is creative, thoughtful, hardworking, loving, unbelievably patient, and kind. A man who has lived out grace to me.

Knowing you is one of the most wonderful, challenging, delightful, worthwhile, and amazing things I will ever experience.

I love that I get to know you even more as you grow even more into your adulthood – into parenthood – and as you lead our family to where the Lord is convicting you to do so.

It is my prayer that I will properly respect your leadership, that I will appropriately value every. single. moment. I have the opportunity to spend alone with you, and that I will begin to adequately express His love for you, my love for you.

With love, His love,
Your Wife.

Here again

In the place between desiring the connection we share and being driven crazy by my anatomy.

Seems like it would get easier but as our bond grows stronger it becomes more difficult to suppress my healthy want for you. When we are apart I must constantly remind myself that nothing else will satisfy. Your touch, the smell of your skin, the warmth and intimacy we share…. None of these can be had without being in close proximity.

So as often before, on travel days, I long and desire and hurt and wish and want but ask the Creator of these good things to help me wait.

You are worth it. The us we have been in marriage is worth denying my own cravings, no matter how natural and even good they are, denying them to enjoy you even more when my heart finds its way home again.

But for now, I am just here again.