In the place between desiring the connection we share and being driven crazy by my anatomy.
Seems like it would get easier but as our bond grows stronger it becomes more difficult to suppress my healthy want for you. When we are apart I must constantly remind myself that nothing else will satisfy. Your touch, the smell of your skin, the warmth and intimacy we share…. None of these can be had without being in close proximity.
So as often before, on travel days, I long and desire and hurt and wish and want but ask the Creator of these good things to help me wait.
You are worth it. The us we have been in marriage is worth denying my own cravings, no matter how natural and even good they are, denying them to enjoy you even more when my heart finds its way home again.
But for now, I am just here again.